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Saturday, August 19th, 2006
7:30 pm	Still Thowing up them WWWWWWWWWWW's I am not sure where to begin again, its been a long time.  There has been so much change over the past year and it is not stopping.  Wrestling is going to be great. Summer was awesome, to the guys that took me out to marble falls on memorial day, my birthday, the lake, parties, bar b ques, thanks.  Back to school.  Oklahoma is hopefully out of the way for now, no telling when that may come up. New school new oppertunities.  The girl that left, the who found me again. We found eachother, that sounds alittle girly, but she is georgouse.   As usual this is out of order, if you dont like that I got two words for you,       SUCK IT!!!  I lost my varsity eligability for a year, Im doing alright with that, one more year on jv will be ok. My senoir year will be even better.  I drive now, I am realy tired. For me, much has changed over the past year, Wrestling is one of the bigges, I ve gone from a nobody to a in your face, not a show off, but a well skilled wrestler.  I still have much to prove, and I am getting there.     Current Mood: content Current Music: Stricken (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 18th, 2006
11:25 pm	OH HELL YEAH OH HELL YEAH YOU SORRY SON OF A BITCH, this is why you get where your going first. SON OF A BITCH. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Glass Shatters (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
9:28 pm	This is long I have no idea where to begin. Nothing has gone the way it was suppose thi year in a sense. No move, no state, everything has been insane. I got second at district, I am gonna add more to this tomorrow. I work at Yamaha now its pretty awesome. Freaking, you know that song by Rob Thomas, Lonely No More, its funny how people say I love you and all that and then a month later, I still want to be your friend, that was a while ago though. The funny thing is, I see the one girl, the day before I got dummped that I hadent seen in months. God works some pretty funny ways. WrestleMania is in 26 days. I really have no clue what to do now about the girl situation. I was sure about it once, and then the next day at school, a freshman goes, she just wants to be your friend. So then I let it go and thinking I was going to Oklahoma it didnt bother me as much, now that I get to stay in Texas, man I dont know what to do. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Stronger- Trust Company (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
8:04 pm	One It seems like everytime I find something I really want to do, something happens that pulls me away from it. Im not just talking about a thing this time, but also a person who is becomming a realy good friend. Its not everyday I find someone like her, just like the song goes," Its nothing I planned". Everytime I even get to talk to my mom, all I do is get yelled at and told about its gonna be ok here. Ive already sacraficed most of wrestling season and my varsity spot, Im lucky to even get a jv match in anymore. It has to get better than this. I havent had very many constants in my life except for one, that is where I am going, if you know me at all you know what I am talking about it, a boyhood dream will come true. I made it this far, I am not quiting now. Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line It’s nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something I promise I might Not walk on by Maybe next time But not this time Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn't that be something If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn't that be something? Call it what you like, maybe I am complaining to much but I think I have that right right now. Im lucky Im here even this long. If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Not yet, people talk about triumph and stories wait till you hear about mine. I have to go, I get that, it will help get me to where I am going to be, God works in some mysteriouse way, thats for sure. This might be my last entry until I leave, Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line It’s nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something I promise I might Not walk on by Maybe next time But not this time Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn't that be something If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn't that be something? Current Mood: restless Current Music: One Thing (Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
7:15 pm	MX There Was A Time Looking Through Myself Wanting To Pretend If I Escaped I Could Fill Myself I Don't Think You Can Been Far And Wide But That Hole Inside Never Really Leaves When I Went Away What I Really Left Left Behind Was Me It's Telling Me To Be On My Way Home Million Miles Away I Can't Stay Each Passing Day Every Passing Face Seems Like Such A Blur I Long To Be Home Silently Lying Next To Her Just To Get Back By Her Side Is All All I Need To Be Cause I Went Away But What I Really Left Left Behind Was Me I Need To Be Getting On My Way Home A Million Miles Away Million Miles Away I Can't Take Now it's your type o mad Jinx the mad sucker with a tail. I've got my life worked up it ain't as cheap as one thinks. I've got links on it, the same Internet porn, ain't as deep as I've been now I've got Justin in my corner. I creep up but they don't want me back in you know my love is so big I think my head is cracking, smacking my face and always giving me the baseline, dead in a days time, give back what's mine. This ain't no rhyme about a junky on run another punk with a gun. Now when you get it, meet the mad fun. So get on your feet and get in pack with the deal the beats on the wheel, now how do you feel. The cool vibe from my lyrical solo I beat on your chest when I’m bouncing like yoyo. This story is old just like the tales I've told. But mark my words it will turn into gold. All right, we've got it right all right. We've got it right all right. We've got it right all right. We dig around fanatics, tall and fallen manics and the planets breaking down with god the only mechanic around, faking firm ground, fucking up the program so now I'm working on my devious master plan. It's all about these crazy comic relieves you know Wooster and Jeeves and modern prophets you never believe, we get them all on a boat leave out all the rules, the white pigeons, and sail the ship of fools. All right, we've got it right all right. We've got it right all right. We've got it right all right. x3 Current Mood: happy Current Music: million miles away (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
5:56 pm	wrestling I wrestled my old partner today, he was the first person I ever wrestled and he was at my debut match last year, he is now an army airborne ranger. It was Bryan vs Brian. It was awesome, I had the chance to feel one of his crossfaces, old memories. Thats the guy who taught me how to wrestle last year, until he got injured. He said I have gotten alot better, and asked if I had wrestled at all over the summer. That is one huge comliment from him. That is one guy that if you dont know what you are doing he will hurt you, I had that happen to me last year. Now its my turn doing the hurting. I learned a lot from him, crossfaces, and the speedy cradle, I use alot of his moves I have to give him some credit, he taught me at first. Today was suprisingly a great day. Current Mood: energetic Current Music: Here Comes The Pain (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
5:36 pm	This week and end So we didnt win state owell, lets get down to everything. I am leaving around February 6th, Ill be back for graduation for my sister in May. Wrestling is still "up there in the air" right now with the weight classes. Banquet for football is comming up in January, now I have to find a date lol, though I dont have to, but Ill see whats going on lol. Wrestling is not doing so good here. Im glad that I am moving because I will never get anywhere here with wrestling for this school. Everythings gonna ba alright, its gonna suck at first but itll get better. I have no idea whats going on for the New Years Eve party now, hopefully we will still have one.We are goig to have one I just heard that right now. We had a police escort back to school today after the game, it was pretty cool. You know what this is getting ridiculous, I need to get a girlfriend, and I dont really care that I am moving later, because I am here now lol. You ever need to write awhole bunch of things, and then you cant remember them lol, thats happening right now, so I will do this again tomorrow, later. My stupid extra credit thing for geometry looks like crap, that teacher desverves to get coal for Christmas after this stupid project, it can only help my grade though. I found one of my Christmas presents today, its small but expensive, some of the band members uses theres alot. I have to take a piss real bad lol. We are going to take the bike into Yamah this week on Wednesday. This is our last week of school until break. Its about time. Im gonna do something now, later. Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: Always- Saliva (Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
6:08 pm	Wrestling On Thursday I have a chance to wrestle on Thursday, varsity 152, at 6:00 p.m. at the front gym, not the field house one. The Next Big Thing will get to wretle on last match in Texas. Here Comes The Pain... Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Falling Apart - Trust Company (Comment on this)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
5:33 pm	Home SMALLVILLE is about to be hit with The Next Big Thing, the house is looking good. More papers were signed today. Yesterday, Emerald's mom can cook, she had a trainer dinner, including honorary member Samantha. Thos enchladas wer awesome. This week has had its ups and downs, I finally started having a good week yesterday. SMACKDOWN comes on in a few hours, I finally get to watch it. I have to miss out on the beggening of wrestling season, Im kinda upset about that but Im getting along with it. My mom keepes telling me that the head football coach wants to have us over for dinner as soon as I get up there, and then theres the one ladies daughter who wants to meet me, Im just a big commadady to them. I am going to unleash hell on there wrsetling team. My mom comes back on Thursday, if I get to wrestle on Thursday she can actually come. It seems like everything is going by so fast, I really want to just leave already and start living where I am going to be living. I am only here for a short while longer, there is so much to do. I want to wrestle. Im gonna go have some fun, later. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Ugly- The Exies (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
9:21 pm	Save Me I feel my wings have broken in your hands, I feel the words unspoken inside... And they pull you under, And I will give you anything you want, oh You are all I wanted, All my dreams are fallin’ down, Crawlin’ around and around... Somebody save me, Let your warm hands break right through, Somebody save me, I don’t care how you do it just stay, stay C’mon, I’ve been waiting for you I see the world has folded in your heart, I feel the waves crash down inside, And they pull me under, And, I would give you anything you want, oh You are all I wanted, All my dreams have fallen down, Crawlin' around and around... Somebody save me, Let your warm hands break right through, Somebody save me, I don’t care how you do it just stay, stay C’mon, I’ve been waiting for you Crawlin' around and around... Somebody save me, Let your warm hands break right through, Somebody save me, I don’t care how you do it just stay with me I made this whole world shine for you... Just stay, stay C'mon, I’m still waiting for you Current Mood: blank (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:13 pm	Hey My mom found a house today, its in the country and has 2 acres of land. SMALLVILLE, just comes to life for me. Im excited about it, I dont even want to go over today right now, I will in another journal. All Im gonna say right now is that I have had better days. I think its gonna be alright in Oklahoma. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Save Me (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
6:46 pm	SMALLVILLE I was gonna do something today, I thought about it for like an hour last night, and I finally decided, just to go ahead and do it. I got hardly any sleep last night also. I get to school, and everythings going all good. Athletics comes around and I was still kinda thinking about it, and then one of the lower classmen in my class, talked to me again. I swear it was the exact oppostie of what I wanted to hear. I played dumb and I was just like " oh I know", and then we had to go to the old band hall for practice. I have a SMALLVILLE thing around me, its that Clark and Lana thing, and now it seems like its just playing out perfect, now I am really moving to a SMALLVILLLE. Even heros dont get what they want all the time, then again, Im not Superman... SMALLVILLE. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Save Me (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 26th, 2005
7:23 pm	Saturday Today was a great day, it startd ff kinda slow but its ending great. I got my new hi hat stand today, finally. We went over to Yamaha, we looked at the 250f's and then my mom went over to the 450f's. That suprised me but Im ok with it. I cant get it until she finds our new house, but hey I can wait because that wont be that long, she said that that would be my main Christmas present. That is ok. Emily finally made it over to my house after a few years lol. We went riding, the only bad thing was that there was hardly any mud. There was alot of water though lol. We hit this one bad bump/ dip/ hole, that racked my nuts so bad. It was painfull. She even drove it for alittle while, and we didnt crash, thats always a good thing lol. We played the drums, she shot up a telephone poll with my paintball gun, and broke a ball and then I had to clean that up, man lol. I showed her part of the movies we made over the summer, and then we played some playstation. So then we had to get some boxes, judt "some" though lol. I couldnt get that stupid air bag to pop. Then were taking her home and my sister calles my mom and then she calls my cell and has to be all, oh hey hows your date going, first off, it wasnt a date, second dont you have something else to do than to bother me, third, well I dont have a third lol. Then shes home, my mom wouldnt let me drive when she was in the car,as soon as we left, I was driving all the way back lol. Have any of you noticed how big Emily's feet are, she was wearing a size 12, a 12. Haha lol. Now my helmet smells like perfume or whatever was in her hair lol, and I got a piece of her hair stuff the helmet. It smells kinda nice actually lol, its better than what it smelled like before lol, though it is a helmet. Owell thats not that bad, lol. Im in a great mood, lol and I keep useing lol, lol. In a guys room you are allowed to have posters of hot girls on your walls lol. I should have invited her out riding way before this, thats my chicken butt for ya lol. Im hungry, and this is long, so later. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Untouchables - John Cena (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
6:06 pm	Oklahoma So heres how its going down, for those of you who dont already know, I am offically moving. I am going to McAlester,Oklahoma, hopefully I will get to stay to semester. I tried calling some of you people but you wouldnt call my cell, or you wouldnt pick up your phone. Wrestling season is on, our first tournament is Saturday. Later. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Stronger- Trust Company (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
6:36 pm	Everything Update Here it is, it has been a while so its gonna be long and mixed up. Wrestling season has started and I cant go to practice until football is over. I can go to wrestling practice tomorrow which is good. I am varsity 145 in wrestling this year. I cant wait to actaully wrestle some matches. I lettered in shop, and I can still letter in training and I want to letter this year in wrestling. I get the letter jacket from shop in December. I want my wrestling one. Theres this girl in my english class, Jennifer, her friend keeps telling me, hey do you like her, would you go out with her, she thinks your hot. I love english class now. She wasnt there last class, but I have englidh tomorrow, heck yeah. We are moving its offical. We are moving to Hanover Cove. and the house will be read I think in April or May. I found that out today. My aunt, my cousin Tracy her husband and her two kids came to visit last weekend. It ws great, we had an awesome time. At JCPenny, this hot girl walked in, and her husband Juan was like, hey hey B attack attack, to bad my mom was there, Then he tried to get the girl reinging us up on my to. I had a great wekend. I get my permit on Monday hopefully. Alyssa, I am so tired this week and last week because of you,its ok though. Im gonna go do something else now, you guys should come to some of my wrestling matches, duals, and tournaments. Later. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Toe to Toe (crack addict) - Limp Bizkit (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
9:44 pm	Wrestling THERES NO HOLDING ME BACK IM NOT DRIVEN BY FEAR IM JUST DRIVEN BY ANGER. Current Mood: angry Current Music: Whatever - WWE (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
8:14 pm	Whats going on. What was with people today, ill get back to that and the week on saturday. Speaking of saturday you guys need to come, if you need directions or a flyer just ask, I can even give you guys a ride. If I personally came up to you and asked you to go, you have to go. Later. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Falling Apart - Trust Company (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
7:48 pm	Its good It is so awesome being able to say you are a sophmore varsity wrestler. The show is on saturday and you guys have to come, if you dont know what it is you better find a way to get a hold of me and ill get you the info. We have a football game tomorrow after school for the trainers game 2 of the series. Wrestling is less than 2 weeks away. Later. Current Mood: curious Current Music: Calling - Taproot (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
7:16 pm	145 I did it, I earned my place and recieved it today. I am now the new 145 varsity wrestler at judson. Current Mood: determined Current Music: Falling Apart - Trust Company (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
2:37 pm	Royal Rumble 2003 I slipped away further from you trying to find what is real, Youre somebody else that I never knew, and someone that I can't feel. I shut it away I keep it in me. Is this what it takes to keep me alive? So you take me and you break me, and you see I'm falling apart. Complicate me and forsake me, you push me out so far; there's no other feeling. I slipped away closer to me the only thing that is real. I'm falling behind and now I can see your absence helps me heal. I shoved you away I keep you for me. Is this what it takes to keep me alive? So you take me and you break me, and you see I'm falling apart. Complicate me and forsake me, you push me out so far; there's no other feeling. Spread, Spread out. So you take me and you break me, and you see I'm falling apart. Complicate me and forsake me, you push me out so far. And you take me and you break me, and you see I'm falling apart. There's no more feeling. Current Mood: determined Current Music: Falling Apart - Trust Company (Comment on this)